In the Losing

When life is heavy and my heart is thick with pain what will I find? Can I explore a part of your heart, God, that I’ve never known in triumph? When I find myself being consumed with heartbreak where the pain at first invades any longings and hopes of what we thought would beā€¦Can IContinue reading “In the Losing”

Embrace the Onion Layers!

As I am watching a chick flick today I am reminded of many things that I miss.   I miss watching chick flicks with my Mom and my sister. I miss girls shopping days. There was never something so fun to recharge with coffee and pick out the perfect outfit. It took me several monthsContinue reading “Embrace the Onion Layers!”

Choosing Love Daily

There is nothing quite like having a heart full of gratefulness despite difficult seasons. There is power in your personal testimony when you begin to honestly describe your journey, not to gain sympathy but to praise God for bringing you through it. I have had several people ask me how I have been able toContinue reading “Choosing Love Daily”

The Calm And The Sunshine

I have to admit that I was in rebellion against my own process of working through grieving since I last wrote. Each time I would start to write I just felt a little frustrated that I was struggling the way that I was. Instead of writing I chose to pack or unpack. This transition inContinue reading “The Calm And The Sunshine”

When Two Worlds Collided

Two worlds collided over Memorial Day weekend. It was a weekend that was full of many different emotions: heartache, pain, sorrow, yet full of joy for our Father. It is so hard to describe exactly every little feeling. It all felt so surreal.   It is most difficult to process two worlds that do notContinue reading “When Two Worlds Collided”

The Crashing Waves

There are moments in life when everything comes rushing in all at the same time. Sometimes it feels like I am in the sea, waves crashing against me one after the other. When I begin to look around at everything that is going on around me, it can take my breath away. The waves areContinue reading “The Crashing Waves”

Learning Not To Look Back and Forgiveness

Last night as I was talking with God about everything that has gone on and is going on, I had a healing experience. Recently I have been working through feelings of anger that I never had before. I have been angry because other people that I love are hurting and there is nothing I canContinue reading “Learning Not To Look Back and Forgiveness”

A Letter To My Mom

I know that you are in the best place imaginable. I am thankful that you are no longer in pain. But today the distance and the separation is way too far. I see your name in my phone and I want to call or text you. I still send you emails because I imagine youContinue reading “A Letter To My Mom”

Perceiving the New

My last post was about letting go. Since that time, I have realized on a deeper level how letting go is often a process and it can often come in different stages. But once you have let go of something completely, and God frees you from the pain, perceiving the new is so much easier.Continue reading “Perceiving the New”