God Sends Yellow Birds

Yesterday I rested for a moment. I looked out my large bedroom window and saw so much life. The beauty from our apple tree, birds flying about and butterflies fluttering amidst other plants, revealed so much abundance. As I breathed deep, my eye caught some movement in a neighboring tree. I saw the color yellow and thought at first that it was only fall leaves. As I focused further there were three yellow birds. Yellow is a significant color for me. It holds memories and special messages I carry deep within me.

Seeing those three yellow birds made me feel so special in that moment. I knew God was reminding me that I mattered big to Him and that He was my promise keeper.

The small things matter big!

Yes, even the small negative things hold just as much power to overtake the good. But we must not let that occur. It does only take a little bit of yeast to take over the bread. In that moment of rest I was battling some bad that had occurred. My heart ached over the depravity of the situation. But God’s goodness came and filled up the deep aching cavern within me.

When life doesn’t make sense God sends yellow birds to remind you that He will never fail you.

If you are waiting for promises, look for the small things. It is often in those small details where it will matter big to you. A sunset. A flower. Birds. A hug. None of these things were intended for us to just pass by.

Pay attention. The small things matter big.

Rest Amidst The Mess

What you don’t see is two piles of laundry waiting for me to my right!

Here is a view into my messy, imperfect yet beautiful life! My bedroom has become work place, devotional space, counseling room, writing space, love room, and laundry room. It is a safe and sacred place. I often weep in here behind closed doors and I laugh endlessly.

Life has a funny way of making one pliable in all of the seasons. This season is no different. My house is full and noise travels down every hall and into each room. Our table is messy and vacuuming has to wait until classes are complete. Things are out of place, the lamp shade gets knocked cockeyed and I let it be.⁣

My dog here reminds me to slow down. Others have encouraged me to let things be. God in His goodness speaks grace upon grace as each day I think I should do it all. He tells me He can but I cannot.

So, here I am drinking my afternoon decaf with a pile of things to do while joining my dog who naps effortlessly. ⁣

I sip and savor my Kafiex pour-over and take a moment to pause. Everyone needs a break.⁣

What do you do to stop and rest amidst your mess?⁣

In Awe As Dreams Come True!

I have to admit something to you. I am an optimist. In some cases others may consider me a little too positive. I mean, have you looked at the world lately? And my response is always, “Yes, and I look through my Creators eyes and see hope everywhere I look.”

Most people who see me on a given day would never know what I’ve lived through and overcome throughout my life. No one would know that 5 months ago I could hardly get out of bed because my body had crashed but I got up and loved my family anyway. We were also enduring some incredible hardships and injustices that will never make sense.

Each day I am faced with a choice in the good and the not so good, how I am going to live my life.

I choose hope. I choose joy. I choose to live my life to the fullest measure, loving God and others with everything within me. I choose to defeat the enemy and teach my small family the same.

Recently doors have opened to some huge, HUGE dreams I have had since middle school. It feels like God has taken good care of my dreams and has prepared me for this year… The year of Covid and civil unrest. Amidst hardship and injustices, God is giving me my dreams. I feel so blessed! Words often fail me as I live in awe. I am speechless as I look at how God has provided supernaturally, performed the impossible (someday we can share these details) and how He has established my family as we seek more growth.

My heart resonates with Isaiah 54:1-3,

“Sing, O barren one, who did not bear; break forth into singing and cry aloud, you who have not been in labor! For the children of the desolate one will be more than the children of her who is married,” says the Lord . “Enlarge the place of your tent, and let the curtains of your habitations be stretched out; do not hold back; lengthen your cords and strengthen your stakes. For you will spread abroad to the right and to the left, and your offspring will possess the nations and will people the desolate cities.”

I have often gone to this passage after years of being barren. What God has done in the past several years has been far greater than a full womb could have given me. Children do not heal souls or solve issues in life. Children are a gift and like arrows in a quiver (Psalm 127:4) but they are not the Restorer, Savior or Healer, God is.

There are moments I wonder if I will awaken from a dream but I know God has already awakened me. Hardships come every day. Healing and justice is a daily battle. But God’s goodness is beyond anything I could have ever imagined. Words do no justice to explain, or to reveal His goodness. He is present in everything I do because I desire Him in everything I do. He gives such good gifts. His healing lasts forever. His joy doesn’t spoil. In fact, His joy remains steadfast just as His love does throughout any trial, mountain or storm. He is amazing!

As I stand looking over mountains and valleys, I see Him. There are more hard times coming and difficult, gut wrenching giants to face, but I know He will lead me to the promised land.

I cannot wait for some big announcements coming soon that I will get to share with each of you, my faithful readers and friends. My desire is that when I can share these dreams as they unfold, that it will reignite the hope within you to never give up. God is in the hope business. He is the best at taking those hardships and pressures to bring forth a beautiful, priceless pearl. He wrote specific dreams and passions into your DNA.

Trust Him.

Lean into His chest and let Him revive the things of old, as He was dreaming of YOU while He formed YOU in your Mother’s womb. It brings Him great joy to walk you into your dreams.

These dreams come with surrender and sacrifice because these are God sized dreams, not human failing ones. You will find that as you move closer to Him, He will move closer to you. My prayer is that we would desire Him more than anything. It is in His presence where every solution to every human need and desire lies. The dreams we long for are found in Him.

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The Thrill Of Hope

It is beautiful to hope through impossible odds. Life is full of daunting circumstances and things often are out of our control. We can either settle with the grey and dismal normal or we can choose hope.

One of my strategies in life has been to choose hope everyday. Making this choice has been better than any anti-depressant. Hope confronts impossibilities and helps add oxygen into deflated lungs pressed heavy by trials. Hope is thrilling!

Hope helps us look through a different lens. Praise is readily on the tip of our tongues. Some may call us crazy and then look at us in awe as the impossible actually takes place!

Choose a different path. Turn off media outlets, set down your phone and go make memories with your loved ones. Pray big, bold prayers that ask God for the impossible and greatest things to take place. He will help walk you through anything you may face.

Hope big today and be swept up in, “the thrill of hope”!

Raise A Hallelujah



One of the beautiful things about Jesus is the HOPE and the JOY He brings to any circumstance in life. I am constantly amazed at this life I get to live because it truly is the best!⁣

In can be easy to focus on the wrong things. The wrong things bring about worry, strife, fear, and anxiety. This is not the way we were intended to live. The Jesus life truly brings freedom and victory from those things even if life looks bleakest.⁣

He is so good! He is the greatest of all time! This is why I will not be silent. I will open my mouth and raise a hallelujah! I will raise a hallelujah on top of the mountain and in the valley. I will praise His name because He is good. I know He is working all things together for good. ⁣

It may look dark for some of you. Others, you may not know how to get out of bed without worrying about the next hour or day. What I can tell you is that He loves you and has the best in mind for YOU. If life is tough, sad and bleak right now, HE is there… HE has you. He provides peace and a place to rest if you choose to abide with Him.⁣

I won’t be silent! My God is the greatest of all time. He is worthy of all my praise— even in the storm. ⁣

Break Free



I was going through a box full of memories and came across this photo. I don’t remember how old I was but I felt feelings of sadness as I looked. You may ask, why? ⁣

When I look at this photo I see a girl who lived life fiercely. I wish I had been kinder to her growing up. I wish I had known that it was okay to not be perfect. As you can tell in this photo one sleeve is puffy while the other is not. This is most likely due to me playing too rough in a dress. I wish I could’ve told her that it was okay to be all girly and school the boys on the playground… That the rips and tears of the lace and ruffles was only a sign of joy and freedom. You can be a girl and still be strong and fierce and even a bit muddy and sweaty.⁣

I wish I could’ve told her that it was okay for people to see her cry… It was okay that she didn’t know how to protect herself but that she had a great, big God that looked out for her and saved her from unimaginable horrors unknown at the time. I wish I could tell her that she had every power and authority given to her over fear and that the night had no hold on her.⁣

But this all is looking back. I have had to walk a path of forgiveness unknown to many and the most healing act was forgiving myself… Loving the girl I was and the woman I have become.⁣

God has done mighty things within me. He has helped me break free from fear, sorrow and chains intended to shut me up and keep me down. ⁣

What do you need to break free from?⁣

Big Hope



No matter what goes on in life I will always be a believer of Hope. ⁣

There has been something deep inside me recently that has sharpened my resolve to never give up. Many things that I hope for I have hoped for, for years and years. Instead of giving up, God has been gently nudging me to stand and rise up in Hope even in the most foggy or the darkest situations. ⁣

I am a believer of Hope.⁣

When it looks as if all is lost or broken, I choose to believe in things found again and things made whole. I choose to champion the hopeless, the hurting. I choose redemption and forgiveness despite the pain. ⁣

Hope is courageous. It can see the good when no one else can. Hope brings life. Dead men come out walking again! Hope and faith are one with each other. ⁣

Today, I Hope BIG! There will be a day that I can testify to a mighty miracle that lit up the darkness and set the captives free. Get ready! Join me 💪⁣

I am a believer of Hope.⁣

What about you?⁣

Empowered Focus



It is true that what one dwells on can consume them.⁣

I was reminded this morning to dwell on the good, especially the truths of God after hearing a very negative news report. The report hit me in the gut and left me feeling very heavy. It felt like it was an attempt to punch out a bit of hope that I’ve been clinging onto. Instantly when I recognized this occuring I began to remind myself of the truth of God’s goodness. I also decided not to watch or read any news the rest of today.⁣

What we dwell on matters. We can choose to have empowered focus, which leads us to live from hope while raising it’s banner for others to join us. We can choose joy despite our circumstances. Does it take grit? Yes, I think it does. Does it take effort? Yes. We cannot afford to be lazy right now. We must rally together and raise our hope banners high. ⁣

We need each other. Each of us are being secluded but that does not mean that we are alone. In fact, any attempt to segregate, tear apart or cause dissension right now can bring us together. It is my belief that our strength is only growing because of this. ⁣

Empower your focus by dwelling on the good. ⁣

What is one good thing that occured today? How can I pray for you and your family?⁣

You are not alone.⁣

Faithful

(He is faithful to my family)



It can be easy to get caught up in what has been lost or stolen at any time of our life. There is a time to grieve and mourn. If you are in a time of mourning whether due to the virus or other life events… ⁣



Maybe your business is suffering or you’ve lost your job. Perhaps someone has passed away or this quarantine schedule is wearing you thin. Maybe you continue to wait for breakthrough in your health or other circumstances and it is a struggle to see right now.⁣



All of you. Everyone! I will shout this, whisper it to your heart and speak it for the rest of my life: God is faithful! He is faithful! His steadfast love endures forever! (Psalm 136)⁣


You may not be able to see it right now but blessings are coming your way (double blessings!). His strength is for you today! His joy is yours today. His peace is for right now. He is for you! ⁣


Do not blame him for the tyranny of this virus. Do not blame him for the loss. Blame the devil and then tell him where to go because he is losing and has lost… Celebrate the victory. Because no matter what evil may come to try to tear us apart it will not prevail. ⁣



God is faithful! He always has been faithful and always will be.