I have been silent for longer than I intended. Words, so many words have tumbled through my mind like clothes in a dryer. Too many words have remained stuck inside. Pain deep in my gut for people I love; my friends, my family and my country. At times even pain over things within myself has come to the surface.
Amidst this time where the true nature of our world has surfaced… Where we finally see how crazy and bonkers things have been below the surface, hidden deep inside, revealing too many dark secrets from the depravity of sin… So much beauty has come forth. Healing is painful yet so breathtakingly beautiful. I would like to think that some of the turmoil we see is a nation beginning to heal.
It has been hope that has carried me during this time. I have learned that it is okay to not have the right words. It is good to have moments of silent reflection followed by breaking out in worship, because words and the feelings behind them become pointless when the nation is up in flames and no one wants to listen.
When words fail you. When pain runs deep. When healing needs to take place. When you need a miracle. When you stand before a giant. When everything is going up in flames. When life is good. When laughter comes from deep wells.
Worship through it all.
I was travelling to visit a friend this past week. During my drive I travelled through 3 different states. The lush green land slowly faded to a parched but beautiful brown. As I travelled I prayed for every soul.
My heart became so overwhelmed with love for my country. I wept. My beautiful nation is in so much turmoil and people are seeing the strife surface in more visible ways. What has been hidden is coming to light. Too many dark, broken and desperate hearts to keep count, yet I have wept and wanted you to know your incredible value.
America, my great country, aren’t you weary and tired? I know there are sorrowing people scattered in the millions. Do you know how much you are loved? ALL of you are loved.
Can we quiet ourselves for once and join hands once again? Will you join me? Can I help pray for a need you may have?
Jesus. He made a way to rest. His joy is waiting for you, today and the next day. Life can be much different. We can choose different; the good different; the holy-change-transform-restore your life different! Because… JESUS.
HE is your joy. Rest will be found with Him. ❤️ Jeremiah 31:25
Humanity has been seeking, racing, and fighting for justice and liberty since the fall of man. We were created to be free. We were created from victory. Yet, we see continuously from our past and our present the rise and fall of humankind. Horrible injustices and enslavement of precious people have occured and continue to reveal themselves.
Humanity attempts to figure out freedom without a true knowledge of the foundation needed to create lasting change. America at it’s birth acknowledged the need for their foundation to be centered on God yet we see a history full of so much sin… So much pain and hatred.
What we are currently seeing is another sifting. Many cry out for justice and liberty yet have no idea how to attain it. Many are acting on the longing and the desire to be restored to our God given design yet without Him their ways of attaining it are misguided. It is hard to watch people in so much pain! Yet if we could come together and humble ourselves before God, He would heal each of us.
The issue of racism comes from the evil in our hearts. It must be uprooted and dealt with. This is going to take more than just conversations and social media posts. It is going to take repentance and a complete heart change moving forward. Before we can ever come together we must come to God.
HE is the only one capable of bringing liberty and justice for all. The cross and empty grave reveal this victory has already been established. America has only to kneel before Him and turn from their wickedness. The government will never be able to give the people what they truly need. Systems will fail and people will continue to perish. With God we can all come together, unified, helping one another to thrive while allowing every voice to open in unified expressions of love.
Jesus is the only one that fulfilled and continues to fulfill our hearts cry for liberty and justice for ALL.
Without hesitation He is for you. Jesus is ready and willing to step into your life and situation and meet it head on.
On Sunday my husband and SD surrounded me and asked Jesus to heal my arm. I had injured it a couple weeks prior and due to continued use I had been in excruciating pain off and on for a few days. There was no immediate relief in the moment but I thanked God anyway, believing that it would get better in time.
Church has been in our home for quite some time now. Even before the quarantine I had been having church at home during my sabbatical. Church this Sunday was particularly special. To have my family surround me in the living room was very precious. It has brought us together in multiple ways; beautiful ways.
One gift of quarantine has been the gift of undoing the busy and being able to slow down as we focus more attention to one another. It should always be this way.
I went about the rest of the day, baking, prepping meals and playing games. It did not dawn on me for several hours that I was doing things WITHOUT pain in my arm or my hand. Finally, it hit me! I was pain free and was able to hold a cup in my hand without it falling out of my hand. Praise Jesus! He had healed me and my family were the vessels. Together we celebrated and it caused dialogue for the next day. My SD would ask if the pain was still gone and I’d lift up my coffee cup proudly and declare, “YES”… Leading up to my healing it hurt to even drink coffee with that hand.
As I was thanking the Lord on my own time the thought occured to me how quick God is to join us in every aspect of our lives if we let Him. God never hesitates. Without hesitation He is quick to help, to heal, to forgive, to bless, and to join us wherever we are.
Without hesitation He comes.
One of the beautiful things about Jesus is the HOPE and the JOY He brings to any circumstance in life. I am constantly amazed at this life I get to live because it truly is the best!
In can be easy to focus on the wrong things. The wrong things bring about worry, strife, fear, and anxiety. This is not the way we were intended to live. The Jesus life truly brings freedom and victory from those things even if life looks bleakest.
He is so good! He is the greatest of all time! This is why I will not be silent. I will open my mouth and raise a hallelujah! I will raise a hallelujah on top of the mountain and in the valley. I will praise His name because He is good. I know He is working all things together for good.
It may look dark for some of you. Others, you may not know how to get out of bed without worrying about the next hour or day. What I can tell you is that He loves you and has the best in mind for YOU. If life is tough, sad and bleak right now, HE is there… HE has you. He provides peace and a place to rest if you choose to abide with Him.
I won’t be silent! My God is the greatest of all time. He is worthy of all my praise— even in the storm.
I was going through a box full of memories and came across this photo. I don’t remember how old I was but I felt feelings of sadness as I looked. You may ask, why?
When I look at this photo I see a girl who lived life fiercely. I wish I had been kinder to her growing up. I wish I had known that it was okay to not be perfect. As you can tell in this photo one sleeve is puffy while the other is not. This is most likely due to me playing too rough in a dress. I wish I could’ve told her that it was okay to be all girly and school the boys on the playground… That the rips and tears of the lace and ruffles was only a sign of joy and freedom. You can be a girl and still be strong and fierce and even a bit muddy and sweaty.
I wish I could’ve told her that it was okay for people to see her cry… It was okay that she didn’t know how to protect herself but that she had a great, big God that looked out for her and saved her from unimaginable horrors unknown at the time. I wish I could tell her that she had every power and authority given to her over fear and that the night had no hold on her.
But this all is looking back. I have had to walk a path of forgiveness unknown to many and the most healing act was forgiving myself… Loving the girl I was and the woman I have become.
God has done mighty things within me. He has helped me break free from fear, sorrow and chains intended to shut me up and keep me down.
What do you need to break free from?
No matter what goes on in life I will always be a believer of Hope.
There has been something deep inside me recently that has sharpened my resolve to never give up. Many things that I hope for I have hoped for, for years and years. Instead of giving up, God has been gently nudging me to stand and rise up in Hope even in the most foggy or the darkest situations.
I am a believer of Hope.
When it looks as if all is lost or broken, I choose to believe in things found again and things made whole. I choose to champion the hopeless, the hurting. I choose redemption and forgiveness despite the pain.
Hope is courageous. It can see the good when no one else can. Hope brings life. Dead men come out walking again! Hope and faith are one with each other.
Today, I Hope BIG! There will be a day that I can testify to a mighty miracle that lit up the darkness and set the captives free. Get ready! Join me 💪
I am a believer of Hope.
What about you?
When I think of this day so many different emotions surface. Tears sting my eyes and my words get stuck in my throat. It is a mingling of both sorrow and joy. It is beautiful.
I thought today that I would share my Mom with you. This is the 5th Mother’s day that she is celebrating victory. I know that up there she finally knows that she did not fail as a Mom. She was much like many of you- often feeling like she never measured up, could always do better and somehow failed at Mommying by the end of the day.
I adored my Mom. I wasn’t perfect and neither was she. When I was with her she made me feel seen, heard and loved. We shared a bond that many never know. She was a great gift. She brought a piece of Heaven on earth, showing me God’s heart.
My prayer for you on a day like today is for you to know how big, how wide, and how far God’s love for you is. God’s love for you is so vast whether you have or had a loving Mother or not. There is no better day than today to love big, forgive much and laugh in the face of uncertainty.
Happy Mom’s day to my Momma and to those of you who Mother without expectation of anything in return. You are loved. God is near you today. Many blessings upon you and those you love.
Life right now has my time and routine in a strange new normal. I have been working on some behind the scenes work which is why my public posts recently have been few and far between. New blessings have entered my life and I’m doing my best to catch up to life even though there are moments in quarantine that feel like slow motion.
I have had moments of working through extreme loss. In those moments I have allowed Jesus to come and heal those areas. In a parallel moment I have also been embracing extreme blessings. These blessings are beyond compare and I cannot wait to share the many dreams that are coming true this year! (Stay tuned in the coming weeks for some announcements)
Life is overwhelming me currently. There are moments of heartbreak but I become so overwhelmed by Love. These are the moments when I try to catch my breathe only to start crying with gratefulness and awe.
God is so good! He is so caring… So loving!
I am continually overwhelmed by Love.
It seems hard to be adventurous when we are told to stay home… So we took to the road and grabbed some lunch. We live in such a beautiful area! I am thankful for the rain that makes it all so green. Have you ever noticed all the different shades of green? God could have chosen just one color but He made so many!
Have you also noticed how the trees bloom? Even as life has slowed it seems to have happened overnight. There is so much beauty all around us. The budding, coming to life, rebirth is happening all around us right now.
Birds sing such happy tunes. It is like surround sound song birds and chirps in my backyard. I could sit back there for hours. I need to figure out how to set up a writing station with power outside as well as get a hammock for writing breaks and naps… Or just to lay outside reading. This is truly one of my dreams come true. It may be one part of my adventure… The part where the entire world slows down for a moment.
Until life and freedoms restored, I will bask in the miracles happening around me. This is only part of the adventure!