I have been silent for longer than I intended. Words, so many words have tumbled through my mind like clothes in a dryer. Too many words have remained stuck inside. Pain deep in my gut for people I love; my friends, my family and my country. At times even pain over things within myself has come to the surface.
Amidst this time where the true nature of our world has surfaced… Where we finally see how crazy and bonkers things have been below the surface, hidden deep inside, revealing too many dark secrets from the depravity of sin… So much beauty has come forth. Healing is painful yet so breathtakingly beautiful. I would like to think that some of the turmoil we see is a nation beginning to heal.
It has been hope that has carried me during this time. I have learned that it is okay to not have the right words. It is good to have moments of silent reflection followed by breaking out in worship, because words and the feelings behind them become pointless when the nation is up in flames and no one wants to listen.
When words fail you. When pain runs deep. When healing needs to take place. When you need a miracle. When you stand before a giant. When everything is going up in flames. When life is good. When laughter comes from deep wells.
Worship through it all.
Today I must believe that all that has been intended to harm and destroy those I love, will be used for good. I must believe that it will all be turned around as justice prevails.
Worthy is your name, Jesus!
Be exalted high in the heavens.
You deserve all of our praise.
In times of gladness I will praise you.
In times of sadness I will praise you.
I will praise you even as I await for justice.
I will praise you while my hands can accomplish little.
I will praise you through the tears.
I know who you are. You are mighty. You are love. Jesus, my savior.
Please do not delay.
Even if I must wait a little longer than I would like for someone to be rescued, I will still praise you.
You deserve all of the praise.
Thank you for victory!