Our messy, good, tragic, beautiful, hope-filled life..

Our family “movie theater”

Cozy nights with a crackling fire. Family nights in our comfy “movie theater”. ⁣

Life holds so much heartache and full hearts; pain and healing; tears and joy. No matter How difficult a week may be nor how draining, my heart is still full as the excitement of Christmas fills our home, our thoughts, and our hearts.⁣

I have to be blunt honest with you, this week was rough. The school week ended with a grand finish too and as my family got cozy by the fire and sat to twinkling lights from the Christmas tree, I cried in my room. My heart could only handle so much pain as I’ve watched pain bubble to the surface in those I love and spill and spew out all over the place. Yesterday was the messiest of them all. ⁣

Despite the mess, we still got in our pjs and had a family celebration full of pizza, cake and a Christmas movie with a crackling fire. The mess is still there but so is love. ⁣

The Christmas season reminds us of the reason why we hope through the hardest of circumstances. Because of Jesus I know that the messy life we live will one day look much different. Healing and wholeness will come and laughter and joy will grow until it overtakes all the attempted robberies of precious life. ⁣

Perhaps you need a moment to cry after a hard day, a brutal week or just the loss that 2020 has brought. You have permission to do so. Grieve as you need but get back to life and celebrate even if the mess is still there. ⁣

Letting Go…

Letting go is not always easy but it is a crucial part of life. We must let go of certain things in our lives that hinder us, hurt us or slow us down. Sometimes we let go of a good thing in order to be ready to receive something better.⁣

If anything is causing unhealthy thought patterns, let it go. If relationships are toxic, let those go. If one season of life is ending, let it go so you can embrace the new one. ⁣

Recently, I have felt like I have been on a borderline with each foot in separate lands. It has caused confusion and I have felt unsettled. When I realized this, I knew I had to let go of what I was holding onto in one land and completely step foot into the new land. Not everyone will understand my actions. I have been severely misunderstood by many. The comforting part about this process has been understanding that God knows me. As long as I am living by His standards then that is what matters the most. ⁣

The beautiful process of letting go enables you to hold more joy. There is a freedom that comes when you move from pleasing man and instead focus every part of your being into pleasing God. ⁣

I must continue to listen and obey.⁣

He is joy! ⁣

As Holidays come and 2020 ends, holding more joy is a great gift. It doesn’t matter what may be going on or what may not be happening because He truly is all that is needed. He fulfills every longing and fills the emptiness or the lack. ⁣

He is good. ⁣

I plan on continuing to hold more joy into 2021. ⁣

Join me. Let go. Hold more joy instead.